the hurt.
it lasts in a strange way.
not always present,
you think you’ve healed.
but it shows up in the form of something else.
for example:
your insecurity.
how it can mold itself
into the crack of every little thing you question about yourself.
your self-hate.
how you subconsciously link it back to the thing you let hurt you.
your sadness.
your lust.
your greed.
your selfishness.
your paranoia.
your inability to be unapologetically you,
because you always find yourself thinking back to those moments she told you
why you weren’t right, and you believed her.
acatalepsy 101 